My Heart

My heart is a very valuable asset of mine. It's the instrument that helps me know good from evil. It's my one and only channel of intelligent communication with Truth - talking to my Angel, God or whoever happens to be on the other end of the line. It also helps me decrypt messages coming on other channels: if a brick falls on my head, my heart readily tells me why it fell, why now and what should I do to acknowledge it.

Listen to Your Heart

My heart has always talked to me. For some time I felt it as consciousness. For some time I ignored it altogether. I started hearing it more clearly only when some distractions went out of my life, like everyday fuss and 24/7 mp3 background.

At the moment, due to my trip IntoTheDark, I'm afraid I'll stop hearing it.

My heart talks to me in whatever language and words I choose to hear it. Sometimes it's really hard to discern what's it's telling me from my imagination. Especially when I don't want to hear what it's telling me.

The usual communication is like this "go and do such and such", which is immediately conditioned into "would you go...?" and then sometimes into "you know, you could go, but then, of course, you could stay", at which point it's really easy for me to say "no".

I am completely sure, as sure as one can ever be, that if I start living according to what my heart tells me, my life will become paradise on earth overnight, my soul will rejoice, God will delight in me and everything will be just great. But as a human being, I find some sick pleasure in being evil. In spite of having this unfailing guide, MySpirit pretends it's a lost wanderer in the valley of good and evil. I just can't give up my stubbornness and live according to His judgements yet. Maybe it's my purpose not to find peace in peace and order in order. I know I don't feel great about it.

I am most thankful for having the gift of hearing my heart. I am most guilty of underusing, misusing, abusing, ignoring and wasting it. Still, I don't want it to go. It may be my only chance to find my way back to Him if one day I'm ready to walk it.

Something for everyone

I know every human being has a heart that is bursting to guide him. You just need to listen to it. If you haven't yet, then you probably won't like what it has to tell you, and you'll try to discard it as nonsense when it does, shutting it up once again. Don't do it. Face the truth. You don't have to turn good. Just acknowledge you're evil

-- Main.AndrewPantyukhin - 09 Feb 2008