My Prayer

Please forgive me for making this intimate conversation with You public, for I have committed to making my life open to all the people, as it is to You.

I know I'm a great and skillful sinner. The fact that I know it only multiplies my guilt. Every day I knowingly commit a lot of premeditated sins. I know it hurts You, and I'm hurt, too. I am weak by myself, and You help me overcome my sinful ways whenever I ask You, but sometimes I am too weak to even ask You. Please forgive me.

Dear God, I love You with all my heart, soul, mind and might, with whatever You gave me. But in my heart there are also all the people around me and all the people I know of and all the other people of the world. I love them, too. Please forgive me for not dedicating myself entirely to you. In love for people, I find excuses to trespass against You, to doubt Your judgement and Your sight. Please forgive me for that.

Dear God, You give me choice in everything I do. Sometimes I'm as obnoxious as to commit a trespass against You simply to exercise the choice You gave me. Please forgive me.

Dear God, it is so often that You give me advice and guidance through my heart, but in so many cases I reject them, doubt them, fail in my belief in You, or even try to forge my sinful ways as Your words in my hear. Please forgive me and don't cease to be generous to me in your wisdom!

Dear God, You grant me so many of my stupid requests, and yet when You ask me of something, I am most ungrateful and refuse to trust You in Your judgement. Please forgive me!

Dear God, please help me conquer myself, my own demons and cravings. Banish my evil ways from me for I don't want them in myself, but am too weak to get rid of them by myself. You gave me a strong spirit, and yet I tarnish it. Please forgive me and help me!

Dear God, please suffer my love for people and let me help them even against Your judgement. I can not choose between You and people. My happiness and my soul is happiness of You and people.

Dear Lord, I love Your every creation, from a lifeless stone to an animal. My love for them is my love for You. But of all Your creations, I love people the most, in all their ways, both sins and virtues. I love them for the spirit of You that You put in them, the choice that they have and the choice that they make. I would be happy with You alone if there weren't any other people, but since there are I can not make myself ignore them and dedicate myself completely to serve You in all Your judgements. Please forgive me and let me help them and help me help them!

Dear Lord, in my ignorance I often hurt people in attempts to help them, knowingly and not knowingly. Please give me wisdom to see the ways of bringing happiness to people. Please let me know when someone's judgement is against him and let me help him open his eyes and help him against his judgement and persuade him to change his judgement.

Dear Lord, please don't let my soul be calm and peaceful until other souls are calm and peaceful, nor let me be truly happy until others are happy, but let me have my own piece of happiness whenever I truly help others, so that I may know that I help them and so that my spirit can have a tiny moment of delight every now and again.

Dear Lord, You gave me gifts of talents in everything I do. Yet I am selfish and often use them for my own sake. Please forgive me and don't leave me! Please let me overcome my selfish temptations and multiply my talents for the sake of those who I want to help. Please don't let my selfishness take over my strength. Let your light be always be in my heart so that I use the power You vest in me in righteous ways.

Dear Lord, please enrich my knowledge of worldly matters, but do not let the knowledge blind my spirit and defeat myself. Please help my keep my knowledge as my servant, so that I can use it to help other people and be of service to You.

Dear Lord, please help me overcome my sloth and my boredom and my depression. I know I am the one responsible for letting them into my heart and failing to drive them out. Please help me!

Dear Lord, please do not turn Your kindness away from me as I turn my obedience away from You. For I am weak and I know I often walk in evil ways, but my heart is always driving me back to You. Let me find grace and mercy in Your sight!

Please forgive me and help me, O Lord! I love You and hail You forever! I am always at Your feet, in humility and love for You.